09. Breaking The Habit 03:16
Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
[Unless I try to start again]
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That i'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
Tonight
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again
I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause i'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
Breaking the Habit
Tonight
Notes: Mike had been trying to write a song around this lyrical idea for over
five years. He tried this theme a number of times, but nothing seemed to do
the song justice. Meanwhile, during the process of putting together this album,
Mike began workng on an interlude, crossing a digitally manipulated but with
strings and piano. Unexpectedly, Brad and Joe suggested that Mike turn the two-minute
interlude into a full song. Tentatively titled "Drawing," the piece
was extended to three minutes and 16 seconds when Mike took it home to write
lyrics. In less than two hours, the lyrics that he had been trying to put together
for years fell into place. With some finishing touches, live piano, and live
strings, the song was finally complete - six years in the making.
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